[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":597},["ShallowReactive",2],{"/2026/mycollegejournal":3,"surround-/2026/mycollegejournal":591},{"id":4,"title":5,"body":6,"categories":571,"date":573,"description":574,"draft":575,"extension":576,"image":574,"meta":577,"navigation":578,"path":579,"permalink":574,"readingTime":580,"recommend":574,"references":574,"seo":585,"sitemap":586,"stem":587,"tags":588,"type":589,"updated":573,"__hash__":590},"content/posts/2026/mycollegejournal.md","我的大学小记",{"type":7,"value":8,"toc":558},"minimark",[9,22,31,34,37,42,48,58,72,78,87,91,94,103,118,133,135,139,148,160,163,165,169,184,190,193,208,214,220,229,248,253,256,274,283,285,289,295,303,306,314,320,326,335,341,347,356,359,366,368,372,375,381,402,408,420,426,434,441,457,463,465,469,472,478,490,493,498,504,510,519,521,524,527,533,541,550,553],[10,11,12,13,16,17,21],"p",{},"那天早上六点，我一个人拖着行李箱，打车去车站，坐上了北上的高铁。",[14,15],"br",{},"\n微信里一共躺着八千块钱，其中 ",[18,19,20],"strong",{},"五千块"," 是我姐转给我的。",[10,23,24,25,27,28,30],{},"列车一路从华北平原驶过，又穿过辽西走廊，最后抵达沈阳。",[14,26],{},"\n到了沈阳，我再打车去学校，报道、进宿舍、铺床、收拾东西。",[14,29],{},"\n就在那样一个再普通不过的早晨里，我的大学生活，正式开始了。",[10,32,33],{},"我忽然想写一写自己的大学经历，写一写那些在我心里，真正称得上“重要”的片段。",[35,36],"hr",{},[38,39,41],"h2",{"id":40},"_2023高考之后命运轻轻翻页","2023：高考之后，命运轻轻翻页",[10,43,44,45,47],{},"2023 年，高考结束，志愿填完，结果也尘埃落定。",[14,46],{},"\n那时候的我，心情是轻松的、明亮的，是一种终于可以长长松一口气的高兴。",[10,49,50,51,53,54,57],{},"我第一时间把消息告诉了舅舅和伯伯。",[14,52],{},"\n后来，我也告诉了我姐。没想到，她直接给我转了 ",[18,55,56],{},"五千块钱","。",[10,59,60,61,63,64,66,67,69],{},"那对当时的我来说，真的是一笔“巨款”。",[14,62],{},"\n我完全没有想到，我姐会一下子给我这么多。",[14,65],{},"\n直到现在，我都记得那份震动。那五千块，不只是钱，更像是一份沉甸甸的牵挂和支持，",[14,68],{},[18,70,71],{},"是我这一辈子都不会忘记的心意。",[10,73,74,75,77],{},"我姐对我说，去买点新衣服，到了大学可以穿得精神一点，参加社团活动也更有底气。",[14,76],{},"\n可很遗憾，前两年我并没有做到。",[10,79,80,81,83,84,86],{},"那时候的我，即使手里有钱，也不敢花。",[14,82],{},"\n直到后来，我才慢慢开始改变。",[14,85],{},"\n中间其实经历过一些矛盾和拉扯，现在回头看，只觉得那时候的自己，幼稚得让人无奈。",[38,88,90],{"id":89},"那个暑期路上的人和事悄悄塑造了我","那个暑期：路上的人和事，悄悄塑造了我",[10,92,93],{},"那个暑假，我开始了一段旅行。",[10,95,96,97,99,100,57],{},"当我多年后，再次到了石家庄那个住过的地方，见到我哥的时候，我才真正理解，什么叫“破败”。",[14,98],{},"\n如果一定要找个词来形容，那大概就是——",[18,101,102],{},"满目狼藉，落花流水",[10,104,105,106,108,109,111,112,114,115,117],{},"后来我去了唐山。",[14,107],{},"\n先见了同学，再见到了孙老师。",[14,110],{},"\n六年过去，再次见面，那种激动很难用语言形容。",[14,113],{},"\n我从来没有想过，我们还能再见。",[14,116],{},"\n只是那一刻我才突然意识到：原来时间，真的过得这么快。",[10,119,120,121,123,124,126,127,129,130,132],{},"再后来，我从唐山去了天津。",[14,122],{},"\n在那里，大伯狠狠训了我一顿。",[14,125],{},"\n可现在想来，我其实很感谢那次训斥。",[14,128],{},"\n因为我知道，他不是为了否定我，而是希望我变得更好。",[14,131],{},"\n我也没有辜负他——那些坏毛病，后来我都一点点改掉了。",[35,134],{},[38,136,138],{"id":137},"大学里的变化我真正开始长大是在-2025-年","大学里的变化：我真正开始长大，是在 2025 年",[10,140,141,142,144,145,57],{},"很多人的改变，发生在大一。",[14,143],{},"\n而我的改变，来得有些晚，是在 ",[18,146,147],{},"2025 年",[10,149,150,151,153,154,156,157,159],{},"我几乎是带着高中的心理惯性走进大学的。",[14,152],{},"\n那时候的我，并没有真正主动去掌控自己的人生，反而更像是被生活推着走。",[14,155],{},"\n我被自己脆弱的内心牵制着，胆怯、犹豫、退缩。",[14,158],{},"\n现在回头看，那段时间的我，确实有些傻，也确实谈得上“一事无成”。",[10,161,162],{},"但变化，总归还是来了。",[35,164],{},[38,166,168],{"id":167},"副业的开始薪水不高但它改变了我","副业的开始：薪水不高，但它改变了我",[10,170,171,172,174,175,57,178,180,181,57],{},"2025 年上半年，我找到了一份兼职。",[14,173],{},"\n工资其实很少，一个月大概只有 ",[18,176,177],{},"30U 到 100U",[14,179],{},"\n可现在回头看，我越来越觉得，那是一份",[18,182,183],{},"薪水微薄，却意义重大的工作",[10,185,186,187,189],{},"因为真正重要的，从来不是那点钱。",[14,188],{},"\n重要的是，我借由这份工作，接触到了以前接触不到的人，知道了很多以前不知道的事，也结交了一些很好的朋友。",[10,191,192],{},"我慢慢明白了一个道理：",[194,195,196],"blockquote",{},[10,197,198,199,201,202,204,205,207],{},"很多东西，本质上就是信息差。",[14,200],{},"\n你不知道，就会落后。",[14,203],{},"\n而有些信息差，并不是单靠上网就能轻易补齐的。",[14,206],{},"\n就算你在网上看到了，没有渠道、没有路径、没有人带，也依然很难把它变成真正属于自己的机会。",[10,209,210,211,213],{},"所以，我很感谢我的老板。",[14,212],{},"\n感谢他愿意带我，愿意教我，愿意让我从零开始，看见另一个世界。",[10,215,216,217,57],{},"当然，这段经历里，还有一个不得不提的人——",[18,218,219],{},"默尘哥",[10,221,222,223,225,226,228],{},"他帮我走出了那段最难熬、最压抑、最伤心的日子。",[14,224],{},"\n是他愿意认真听我说话，是他一点点开导我、指引我。",[14,227],{},"\n如果没有他，也许直到现在，我还会被某些事困住，还会反反复复地陷在情绪里，走不出来。",[10,230,231,232,234,235,237,238,57,241,243,244,247],{},"后来，老板的业务被坏人恶意攻击数月，最终倒闭了。",[14,233],{},"\n那次退款，是我去处理的。",[14,236],{},"\n总共亏了 ",[18,239,240],{},"4231 元",[14,242],{},"\n老板给我转了 ",[18,245,246],{},"5000 元","，对我说：",[194,249,250],{},[10,251,252],{},"“剩下的，就当你的薪水。”",[10,254,255],{},"那一刻，我记住的不是金额，而是一种被信任、被看见的感觉。",[10,257,258,259,261,262,265,266,269,270,273],{},"再后来，老板又带我去做另一件事。",[14,260],{},"\n他说，一个月愿意给我开 ",[18,263,264],{},"3000 元"," 的工资；另外，还想自己掏钱，每个月再给我 ",[18,267,268],{},"2000 元","，让我去做 ",[18,271,272],{},"vibe coding","，开发项目。",[10,275,276,277,279,280,282],{},"可因为我自己的时间确实有限，我最终拒绝了那份 3K 的兼职。",[14,278],{},"\n至于那个 2K 的项目，我选择接下来做，但我也婉拒了工资。",[14,281],{},"\n不是因为我不需要钱，而是因为我不想让老板为了我，再额外承担那两千块的支出。",[35,284],{},[38,286,288],{"id":287},"开始健身人开始发光往往先从身体开始","开始健身：人开始发光，往往先从身体开始",[10,290,291,294],{},[18,292,293],{},"2025 年 5 月 6 日","，我跟佟老师说：",[194,296,297],{},[10,298,299,300,302],{},"“我想去办张健身卡。",[14,301],{},"\n我想让自己更自信一点。”",[10,304,305],{},"老师看了看我，说：",[194,307,308],{},[10,309,310,311,313],{},"“你这小身板，别去办卡了，去了也坚持不了几天。",[14,312],{},"\n周二周四到校健身房等我。”",[10,315,316,317,319],{},"那个健身房，本来是给体育队训练用的。",[14,318],{},"\n也就是从那一天开始，我真正开始了锻炼。",[10,321,322,323,325],{},"准确来说，那时候还算不上“健身”，更像是很认真地锻炼自己。",[14,324],{},"\n我每周练两到三天，一次一个半小时。",[10,327,328,329,331,332,334],{},"后来，随着我开始坚持，身边一起练的人也慢慢多了起来。",[14,330],{},"\n有老师带着练，也有已经拿到专业证书的教练——老师的学生。",[14,333],{},"\n再后来，还有了固定约着一起去锻炼的朋友。",[10,336,337,338,340],{},"健身带给我的，不只是体态上的变化。",[14,339],{},"\n它更像是在一点点重建我的精神状态。",[10,342,343,344],{},"老师说，现在的我，",[18,345,346],{},"“走路都带风了。”",[10,348,349,350,352,353,355],{},"我很喜欢这句话。",[14,351],{},"\n因为它不只是说外形，更像是在说：",[14,354],{},"\n一个人开始相信自己之后，整个人的气场都会变。",[10,357,358],{},"我也给自己立下了一个很简单的目标：",[194,360,361],{},[10,362,363],{},[18,364,365],{},"我要一天比一天更好。",[35,367],{},[38,369,371],{"id":370},"开始打扮学着认真对待自己","开始打扮：学着认真对待自己",[10,373,374],{},"开始健身之后，我也慢慢开始学着打扮自己。",[10,376,377,378,380],{},"我认识了一位朋友。",[14,379],{},"\n她告诉我该怎么选衣服、怎么挑鞋子，也建议我去修眉。",[10,382,383,384,386,387,389,390,57,393,395,396,398,399,57],{},"修眉，是最开始的一步。",[14,385],{},"\n后来我听从建议，又去做了修面，也就是脸部深度清洁。",[14,388],{},"\n再往后，我开始做 ",[18,391,392],{},"MTS 微针修复",[14,394],{},"\n一点点下来，我的脸部皮肤状态，比以前好了太多太多。",[14,397],{},"\n护肤的花费大概是 ",[18,400,401],{},"550 元一次，三周一次",[10,403,404,405,407],{},"也是在那个阶段，我突然很清楚地意识到：",[14,406],{},"\n我以前真的没有什么像样的衣服，整个人看起来很土，也很没有精神。",[10,409,410,411,413,414,416,417,57],{},"后来，在舍友和他女朋友的帮助下，我第一次认真地去挑衣服。",[14,412],{},"\n在万达，我买下了属于自己的第一套像样的穿搭。",[14,415],{},"\n那次一共选了两套，花了 ",[18,418,419],{},"1148 元",[10,421,422,423,425],{},"那不是简单的“买衣服”。",[14,424],{},"\n那更像是我第一次真正开始告诉自己：",[194,427,428],{},[10,429,430,431,433],{},"你值得被认真对待。",[14,432],{},"\n你也值得拥有更好的样子。",[10,435,436,437,440],{},"到了 ",[18,438,439],{},"2026 年","，我给自己立了一个新的小目标：",[442,443,444,452],"ul",{},[445,446,447,448,451],"li",{},"每个月拿出 ",[18,449,450],{},"1000 元"," 做护肤",[445,453,447,454,456],{},[18,455,450],{}," 买衣服",[10,458,459,460,462],{},"这不是虚荣。",[14,461],{},"\n这只是我终于开始愿意，好好照顾自己。",[35,464],{},[38,466,468],{"id":467},"赚钱这件事它让一切都真正站住了","赚钱这件事：它让一切都真正站住了",[10,470,471],{},"这一部分，对我来说其实特别重要，甚至可以说是“底层支撑”。",[10,473,474,475,477],{},"因为如果我赚不到钱，那么前面说的那些改变——健身、护肤、穿搭、自信——某种意义上都很难持续。",[14,476],{},"\n我也许可以靠自己的小金库撑一阵子，但总有一天，会看到余额一点点归零。",[10,479,480,481,483,484,486,487,489],{},"也是从副业开始，我慢慢有了收入。",[14,482],{},"\n后来，收入一点点多起来。",[14,485],{},"\n我不再依赖父母给的生活费，反而有能力每个月拿出 ",[18,488,450],{}," 给我妈妈，当作零花钱。",[10,491,492],{},"有一次，我哥半开玩笑半讽刺地对我说：",[194,494,495],{},[10,496,497],{},"“你要是没有那份收入，还敢自己一个人‘离家出走’吗？”",[10,499,500,501,503],{},"我没有反驳。",[14,502],{},"\n因为我知道，他说得也有几分道理。",[10,505,506,507,509],{},"很多时候，所谓底气，确实要靠现实一点点撑起来。",[14,508],{},"\n你能自己养活自己，能自己做决定，能承担后果，人才会真正开始变得坚定。",[10,511,512,513,515,516,518],{},"现在回头看，会觉得这一切像是巧合。",[14,514],{},"\n可再仔细想想，那些所谓的巧合，又仿佛都像命运埋下的伏笔。",[14,517],{},"\n一件事推着一件事，一个人影响着一个人，最后就把我带到了今天。",[35,520],{},[38,522,523],{"id":523},"写在最后",[10,525,526],{},"如果要用一句话来概括我的大学变化，那大概就是：",[10,528,529,530,532],{},"我不是一下子变好的。",[14,531],{},"\n我是在很多个难熬的时刻里，在很多次自我怀疑之后，在一次次跌跌撞撞中，才慢慢变成现在这样。",[10,534,535,536,538],{},"我开始赚钱，开始健身，开始打扮自己，开始接触更大的世界，开始学着与人相处，开始真正面对自己的情绪，也开始认真思考：",[14,537],{},[18,539,540],{},"我到底想成为一个什么样的人。",[10,542,543,544,546,547,549],{},"一路走来，我得到过很多人的帮助。",[14,545],{},"\n家人的支持，老师的带领，朋友的陪伴，老板的信任，还有默尘哥在我最低谷时拉了我一把。",[14,548],{},"\n这些人和这些事，我都记得。",[10,551,552],{},"而现在的我，也终于越来越相信一件事：",[194,554,555],{},[10,556,557],{},"人是可以慢慢变好的。",{"title":559,"searchDepth":560,"depth":560,"links":561},"",4,[562,564,565,566,567,568,569,570],{"id":40,"depth":563,"text":41},2,{"id":89,"depth":563,"text":90},{"id":137,"depth":563,"text":138},{"id":167,"depth":563,"text":168},{"id":287,"depth":563,"text":288},{"id":370,"depth":563,"text":371},{"id":467,"depth":563,"text":468},{"id":523,"depth":563,"text":523},[572],"随想","2026-03-14",null,false,"md",{},true,"/2026/mycollegejournal",{"text":581,"minutes":582,"time":583,"words":584},"14 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